as if nothing's wrong?

1. it's d-d-dedicatedAm i supposed to laugh.As if nothing's wrong?Each day passes by as if nothing's wrong.Hey, i haven't called you in a while.i just called to say i'm so sorry and for that i'm even more sorry.Honestly, i don't have anything to say so i'm just babbling.I was wondering how you've been.'What do you want? you're drunk again aren't you?'i don't want to hear it again i try hardto sound okay.you've become mute on the other sidebecause of the random thingsi'm sayingWhat's so great about my crooked pride?I want to run to you, but still..it's so hard but i try to act cool,as if nothing's wrong .If i could get rid of this affection,if i could get rid of this hatred.My dear, do you know you'll all i have?I realized to late,i'm so sorry my boo.Am i supposed to laugh As if nothing's wrong?Each day passes by as if nothing is wrong?(As if nothing's wrong, as if nothing's going on.memories of you i once tried to eraseare starting to grow on me)i need you come back.I want to tell you truthfully my heart's falling.where are you?I can never forget our first date (why?)you're birthday is still marked on my calendar.Oh no, i don't believe people are saying my laughter had died.There was a familiarity like longlost friends.We used to talk all night on the phone.How did we have so much to say back then?How are you doing.The promises i wasn't able to keep still cling to my heart.I worry about you a lot,i wonder if you stay awake at night like i do andi feel sorry once again.you said:'you're too mean'what's the problem?im still trying to sort things outbut like and idiot my regrets came to late.Where you at?If you leave, what am i supposed to do?Am i supposed to laugh as if nothing's wrong?Each day passes by as if nothing's wrong.I didn't want to drag youinto this indecent life of mine.Im sorry.. sorry..please smile a lot more often i hope you much happier.i will watch you do well from afar.you'll fly away on newly spread wings.I'll pray that you'll be happy.I have no time, i run.I lived for a long time without evenknowing the dateon the calendar.my heart doesn't stop burning but the clock still goes tick tick tock (as ever tick tick tock)